Liam Payne's sister 'paralysed' by grief as she remembers star on 1-year anniversary of his death
Liam Payne's sisters Ruth Gibbins and Nicola Payne have remembered the late One Direction star on the one-year anniversary of his death, with Ruth admitting she is "paralysed" by grief on a daily basis, and Nicola insists she acknowledges her late brother "every day".
Liam Payne's sister is "paralyzed" by grief daily following his death.
Ruth Gibbins took to social media to pay tribute to her late brother, a year after he tragically died in October 2024, aged 31, when he fell from a hotel balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina.
Part of her tribute, which she shared on Instagram, read: "I underestimated grief, woah, did I underestimate it. I am paralyzed by it daily.
"I thought I had felt it before but I know the losses before you were just intense sadness, you are the loss of my life, the one person who l will miss at every single occasion in my life. I’d taken for granted that my little brother would be there through life.
"You shouldn’t have died."
Following Liam's passing, Ruth has been suffering from a recurring nightmare where she is in the 1D star's hotel room, but he cannot hear her "screaming" for him.
She added: "My brain is locked on your last minutes on this earth, the unaccounted minutes, the minutes I will never have the answers to, the minutes that changed everything."
Liam's other sister, Nicola Payne, also paid tribute to her late brother on the anniversary of his death, admitting she acknowledges him "every day" and always speaks to her daughter Ffion about him to keep his memory alive.
Part of her statement read: "A year ago today marks a date I never wanted to see again.
The day our lives changed forever, and our hearts were left broken, with pieces missing.
"That night, unaware of what you were going through, that you were alone. Me and Ffion watching Dinosaur on the TV and me saying to her, next time we see Uncle Liam, he'll be able to tell you all the dinosaurs, as he loves them.
"I didn't know that as those words left my lips, and the pictures I took of the dinosaur to show you, that still sit on my phone today, that there wouldn't be a next time.
"There wouldn't be that chance to do something so normal to everyone else. It would never happen for us.
"The next thing finding out you had gone. Without a moment to comprehend, we found out with the world, praying the world had got it wrong until hours passed and it was confirmed.
"We didn't get to say goodbye; we didn't know all of the lasts had already happened.
"We sit and listen to the world's view, a view of what we should be doing, what they think they know, and like a lot of your life it just doesn't seem fair.
"We have only received a miniscule amount of the ridicule you received in life and in death and, it's been unbearable.
"I continue to acknowledge you every day, as though you are still here with us. I talk about you with Ffion and include you in everything we do, searching the sky for the brightest star because that is Uncle Liam."
Nicola also vowed to ensure his eight-year-old son Bear - whose mother is pop star Cheryl - "knows everything about the amazing daddy he has".
