Bloodshot star Eiza Gonzalez 'wasn't able to cry for four years' after her dad's death
Eiza Gonzalez has admitted that she questioned her faith in God after her father passed away.
Eiza Gonzalez "wasn't able to cry for four years" after her dad passed away.
The 35-year-old actress' dad, Carlos Gonzalez, died in a motorcycle accident "exactly 10 days" after her 12th birthday, and Eiza has admitted that she descended into "complete and utter denial" about his passing.
The Hollywood star said on the 'Podcrushed' podcast: "My dad was a really good man. He cared about people so much. And I just couldn't connect, the unfairness of him dying.
"I just was like, '(Of) all the f****** s***** people in the world, him?"
The tragedy actually made Eiza question her own faith in God.
The actress explained: "It made me not believe in anything bigger ... I lost faith completely. And I had a real hard realisation of my dynamic with my father.
"I wasn't able to cry for four years. Four or five years - I didn't cry at all. I was just in complete and utter denial. And, simultaneously, I started my career, and I needed to cry a lot for work."
Eiza struggled to process her own grief for years, and she entered "survival mode" by focusing on her burgeoning career.
The 'Bloodshot' star shared: "Something died in me, and I just completely removed myself from my father. Like, I just couldn't. It was so unbearable that I just sort of walked away.
"It was a really tough time. I dove into work. I was in survival mode constantly."
Eiza previously explained that it took her five years to "accept [her] loss".
The movie star - who ultimately turned to therapy to help process her grief - said via an Instagram post: "Between the ages of 15 and 20 was very hard for me because I used to eat compulsively. It took me a long time to decipher that it was all happening because I was depressed after my dad died.
"And it was very hard for me but I changed my eating habits and began eating healthier and I began taking care of myself in all areas. It took me 5 years to get out of depression and accept my loss. (sic)"
