'It almost took me out for good': Jennifer Lopez breaks silence on Ben Affleck split
Jennifer Lopez's split from Ben Affleck almost took her out "for good" but she has no regrets about her decision.
Jennifer Lopez's split from Ben Affleck almost took her out "for good".
The 55-year-old singer-and-actress filed for divorce from the 'Argo' star two months ago after just two years of marriage and she does "not regret" her decision "for one second".
Jennifer - who was previously married to Ojani Noa, Cris Judd, and Marc Anthony - told Nikki Glaser in a conversation for Interview magazine: "I was thinking about this time in my life, and I’m like, 'That’s not what I thought it was going to turn out like.' And then I thought, 'No, this is exactly where I needed to be, to lead me to where I want to go.'"
Asked if she doesn't regret the pain she went through, she added: "Not one second. That doesn’t mean it didn’t almost take me out for good. It almost did.
"But now, on the other side of it, I think to myself, 'F***, that is exactly what I needed. Thank you, god. I’m sorry it took me so long. I’m sorry that you had to do this to me so many times. I should have learned it two or three times ago. I get it. You had to hit me really hard over the head with a f****** sledgehammer. You dropped the house on me. Don’t have to do it again.' ”
The 'On the Floor' hitmaker - who didn't mention Ben by name throughout the interview - admitted it has been "f****** hard" being along and there are times she has felt "sad" and "desperate" but she knows she will be fine on her own.
She said: "This summer, I had to be like, 'I need to go off and be on my own. I want to prove to myself that I can do that.'
"It’s f****** hard!... It feels lonely, unfamiliar, scary. It feels sad. It feels desperate.
"But when you sit in those feelings and go, 'These things are not going to kill me', it’s like actually, I am capable of joy and happiness all by myself. Being in a relationship doesn’t define me. I can’t be looking for happiness in other people. I have to have happiness within myself.
"I used to say I’m a happy person, but was still looking for something for somebody else to fill, and it’s just like, 'No, I’m actually good.' "
And now, Jennifer - who has 16-year-old twins Max and Emme with Marc - is determined to stay single.
She said: "Here’s the thing: There’s no new bar because I’m not looking for anybody. How’s that?"
