Jesy Nelson's documentary is 'too emotional' for her to watch
Former Little Mix star Jesy Nelson has only watched her Amazon Prime documentary series once because it's "too emotional" for her to look back on "one of the hardest, most painful times" of her life.
Jesy Nelson has only watched her new docu-series once because it's "too emotional" for her to look back on "one of the most painful times" of her life.
The former Little Mix star, 34, welcomed twin daughters, Ocean and Story, with her partner Zion Foster last year and she allowed cameras to follow her during her "high risk pregnancy" to make a fly-on-the-wall series for Amazon Prime Video and she's admitted the project turned out very differently to how she expected.
In a post on Instagram, Jesy wrote: "Isn’t it crazy how the universe works, and how it’s all divine timing? Last year, I decided that when I fell pregnant, I wanted to document everything.
"I wanted to let cameras into my life and my home, and film what I thought was going to be a really exciting, fun little experience into motherhood that me and my girls could one day sit down and watch back for memories when they are older.
"But little did I know the journey I was about to embark on. From being told I was having twins, to then finding out I had TTTS, a rare condition that affects only a small percentage of identical twins and that my babies’ survival rate was next to nothing without treatment, to then living in hospital for three months, having my babies early, and being on the neonatal ward for over a month.
"Bringing them home honestly felt like a dream, like we were finally out of the trenches. It has honestly been one of the hardest, most painful times in my life that I’ve ever had to go through, let alone document. I’m so incredibly proud of this docu-series, and I cannot wait for my fans, and for everyone who has followed my journey, to see this."
Jesy's twins were later diagnosed with SMA1 (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) - the most severe form of the progressive muscle-wasting disease - and she explained the new health crisis forced her to look back on the events captured in the series "through a completely different lens".
She added: "I’ll be completely honest … I’ve only ever watched this series once because it’s genuinely too emotional for me to watch right now.
"But when I did watch it, I saw everything through a completely different lens, now knowing what I know about my girls and their diagnosis.
"Nobody could have ever prepared me for what was about to come when I started filming."
She went on to conclude: "One thing I do know when watching it is how incredibly proud I am of my girls, and how utterly inspiring they are; from their resilience, their strength, their constant fight, and their sheer happiness that they show me day in, day out.
"There may well come a time in the near future when my beautiful girls turn to me and say: 'Mummy, I don’t think I can do that', and if that day ever comes, I’ll sit them down in front of the TV and play them this footage. And I’ll turn to them and say: 'My darlings, you CAN and you WILL!!!'"
Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Mix debuts on Amazon Prime on February 13.
