Geordie Shore star Chloe Ferry turned to therapy amid depression: 'I didn't want to be here...'
'Geordie Shore' star Chloe Ferry needed therapy after going through depression and admitted that she had "dark thoughts" about "not being here" anymore.
Chloe Ferry needed therapy after going through depression.
The 29-year-old reality star has admitted she hit “rock bottom” and "didn't want to be here" anymore and has been working with a therapist to learn to “love herself” again after struggling with insecurities about her appearance.
Speaking on the 'We Need To Talk' podcast, she told host Paul C Brunson: "I didn't want to be here. I've been seeing a therapist.
"I always doubt myself and look in the mirror and say I don’t look nice today. I’m very mean to myself and I need to give myself a break.
"I felt like I was going through depression.
"The main thing is I want to love myself again. I’ve been rock bottom where I’ve felt I didn’t want to be here, that’s how bottom I was.
"I get scared of going back to that mindset ... it was dark. I can’t go back to feeling like that."
The 'Geordie Shore' star has had a considerable amount of cosmetic surgery since she found fame on the MTV reality show almost a decade ago and feels as if she has "wasted" the last decade as she tried to navigate fame and the backlash that came with it.
She said: "Listen, I hold my hands up – I made a mistake. I got surgery because I was insecure and felt ugly. If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t have done it.
"Surgery is a dark hole. You always want more – but what is perfection? It doesn’t exist. I was trying so hard to make people like me and stop the nasty comments, but I lost myself along the way
"I’ve wasted my 20s chasing some girl I wasn’t born to be."
